Wednesday, November 23, 2011


I am thankful for so many things. My mom, my sister, my amazing husband, his wonderful family, my Arizona family who we will be celebrating with tomorrow....the list goes on when it comes to people in my life. I am blessed. And then I am thankful for my career, for being able to doing what I love. And for balance - I get to do what I love part time and raise my babies full time. It was always a dream of mine, and that dream is being realized. I am beyond thankful for the "simple" things as well - (more than) enough food in my refrigerator and pantry, health insurance that allows my family to stay healthy, a home big enough for all of us to have plenty of space, clean water, heat when it is cold outside, clothes for the sake of frills instead of necessity, safety in my home and community....and I know the list could go on and on. I will never understand why I was so blessed as to be born into this life. And I try not to go even one day without taking at least a moment to say a prayer and to say thank you.

And then, of course, the two blessings in my life that leave me speechless. There are no words to express my gratitude for these gifts. I am so, so thankful....

Happy Thanksgiving!

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Addison is 9 Months Old!!

My sweet princess is 9 months old (as of the 15th) and I can hardly stand how amazing she is! She continues to be the most determined and motivated baby I know. She just doesn't give up when she wants something and falling down, bumping her head or mommy pulling her away doesn't even phase her. I am so proud just watching her. Tonight in the bath tub, Addison fell backward and she can't get herself up from that position, so we always have to rescue her. Her face clouded over with shock and fear, and it literally broke my heart. Once I sat her back up, she didn't even cry or whine. She is such a trooper. But I hugged her and kissed her anyway. And I told her that mommy will never let anything bad happen to her. And then my heart sank as I realized, I can't promise that forever. Some day soon, she will be bigger and more independent and I won't be able to protect her from everything in this world. My heart couldn't tolerate that thought, so I just hugged and kissed her some more and tried to distract myself. I don't know if it is because she is my baby (as opposed to my big boy:)) or my girl or what, but I am intensely protective of her. I literally feel her sadness, her pain, her fear to my absolute core. I can't even think about her not being happy. She just always has to be happy. That's all I ask.

Addison is pulling up to stand everywhere on everything. She can cruise along furniture but doesn't choose to often. She seems to prefer crawling. She can really get places fast that way! She is babbling a lot and has been saying "ma ma ma" a lot. She also shakes her head back and forth when I say "no no no." It is so adorable! Addison has pretty much refused all baby food lately. She just sees the bowl and starts waving her hands in front of her and shaking her head. She makes her wants (and dislikes) very clear! We found out recently that she absolutely loves macaroni and cheese and mandarin oranges. Unfortunately, she just picks and can't possibly eat an entire meal of that stuff. She is not getting the nutrients she needs from it. She needs her baby food. But, again, she refuses, so what can I do? She still can't tolerate thicker baby foods, like stage 3, and just gags on them. The doctor tells me to just keep trying and practicing eating food with her and she'll eventually get it. I have a feeling we have a very picky eater on our hands. Addison still gets up twice a night to eat pretty much every night. I also asked the doctor about this - and his answer is that she probably is hungry because she's not eating her solid meals. I was actually relieved to hear him say this. I was worried he would tell me she wasn't hungry and to let her cry. And I just know that's not the case. So, we keep getting up. One day, I will sleep a full night again. One day...

Addison is 19lbs 5oz (61st percentile) and she is 29.25 inches long (95th percentile). She is tall, tall, tall!! She has to wear 18 month shirts now! And 12-18 month pants. It's crazy, I tell you! She is just soooo long! She is gorgeous. I can hardly believe she is mere weeks away from being a toddler. I hope I can survive her growing up, because it is hard to even think about my baby not being a baby anymore. We love you, sweet baby girl! Happy 9 months!

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Adoption Day

One year ago on November 6, the judge declared by law what was already true in our hearts: Jackson Levi is our son. Forever and ever. And while it was a "simple" formality, it meant everything. So, I wanted to be sure we at least marked the day. I don't know that it will be a huge occasion in our home in the years to come, but I still want it to be recognized. So I ordered some cake pops as a special treat for Jackson to have. And boy did he love them:)....

This last year has been such a whirlwind. I feel like I am just settling into life now. And it feels good. We are complete and now we get to enjoy every little thing about our babies. And Adoption Day for our sweet boy is no exception:). Our lives and our hearts became full the day he was placed in our arms. He has brought an immense amount of joy, love and laughs into our home. I can't believe how blessed we are. Happy Adoption Day to my little man, mommy loves you more than words could ever express.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Happy Halloween!!

I once dreamed of the day I could dress up my little one(s) and become a part of the Halloween celebrations! For myself, I don't really care about the holiday. It's never been a biggie for me. But oh how I love to join the world of families and dress my little ones up! We just went to a church event for about an hour and a half. Nothing big. But it was just enough. Here are my precious little ones enjoying the holiday...

My baby girl's first Halloween. It's just too much!! Her little skirt has pink skulls in the lace. Too cute.

Of course Jackson had to be spiderman. I'm pretty sure Jason would not have had it any other way:). How cute is this little man??


This was their favorite activity of the night. Jackson was soaked through his clothes, but who cares? It was pretty much the only thing they really DID at the event.