Our princess is growing up fast! She is just so sweet. She now spends a lot of time being happy and babbling and smiling at us. She even has a little laugh that comes out sometimes. She also likes to make gurgling and raspberry sounds with her mouth and then watch us make them back. We have whole "conversations" that way! She is able to lie on the floor or on her playmat and entertain herself for good chunks of time now (15 minutes or more!). She is still such an alert baby, so she has a fun time just looking around and taking in the world. She is constantly moving her arms and kicking her legs. She has begun reaching towards toys. It's not a very coordinated reach, but she is definitely being goal-directed in her attempts to touch the toys. It is amazing to see what she has learned in just a few short months. She is turning into such a sweet little person!
Addison still does not love going to sleep. So, we have begun to rely on the swing (I know, I know, bad parents!). But, we cannot take the time it requires to get her to go to sleep enough to lay her down without her waking up immediately and crying. So, we have bought a boat load of D batteries and just accepted the fact that the swing is our friend...for now. Once Addison hits 4 or 5 months old, we will begin our sleep training. I have a feeling she'll do fine. She's just too young right now for me to feel comfortable letting her cry too much. So, the swing it is. I'm kind of in survival mode at this point, which means I will use whatever works to keep this house running smoothly during the day (or as smoothly as it can get at this point:)) and to get my 6 hours of (interrupted) sleep at night. Without the swing, it'd probably be a lot less and I'm barely surviving on this. She still fights sleep the worst at night (when I'm at my most exhausted of course) and sometimes won't fall asleep until 11pm. Usually I can get her down around 10pm, but lately she's been pushing it later and later.
Surprisingly, Addison seems to be really even tempered. I say "surprisingly" because I am not at all easy going! And with how fussy she was at the beginning, I thought for sure we were in for a very fussy baby. But, she has evened out so much. She really only gets fussy when she is hungry or tired. Of course, she is very hard to soothe when she is fussy, but my guess is that will get better as she gets older. Or at least I am hoping so! She does NOT like the car and makes her distaste known whenever we take her in it. We took a trip 3 hours away about 2 weeks ago, with both babies. Bad idea. I am hoping she will eventually make peace with her car seat. We'll see.
Lastly, my success story: nursing is going so well now! We have not had to supplement with formula in over 6 weeks. The medication I am on is doing the trick. There is more milk than little Addy knows what to do with. I usually have to pump or I get uncomfortably full. And I now love, love, love nursing my baby girl. I honestly could never figure out why people said they loved breastfeeding. I literally despised it. It was painful and stressful. Now I understand. When it works, it is amazing!
I have always known that bonding is a process. Not everybody falls in love with their baby the second they see him/her. I always loved Addison, my heart literally almost burst with love the minute I met her. But the stress of the first weeks really made bonding difficult. As the weeks and months have gone by, I have become in awe of my love for her. There are no words to describe how deeply, intensely and passionately I love this baby girl. Happy 3 months, Addy!