Jackson turned on his most charming smiles for A - it was almost like he knew what a special person A was. He would look at A and you literally could see him dial up the cuteness! We all found it quite amusing. We talked about A's family, and how they were processing the adoption. A was adopted himself, so there are interesting dynamics. A's parents are sad about the adoption of their grandchild, but are beginning to consider visiting Jackson. We have offered visits to them from the beginning, knowing that A's mom has taken the situation especially hard. They follow Jackson on Jason's facebook page, so we know they see how healthy, happy and beautiful Jackson is. A believes that he may be ready to take them with him next time he comes to visit. We are so excited for the possibility. We absolutely believe that Jackson cannot have too many people to love him - as long as they are healthy people for him, we want him to know how much they love him.
I have had many other moms say they are not sure they could do what we are doing, that they just couldn't "share" their child. I am not sharing Jackson any more than you ever share your baby with your family. A and his parents are Jackson's family. That does not make me any less his mom. And I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that knowing his birth family is the best thing for him. So, even when I do have insecurities, I am able to move past them. Because it is what is best for Jackson. And any mom would do what they know is best for her child, no matter the pain (or insecurity) it caused her. So, while I know it must be hard for others to understand in the abstract, when you are in this situation, it is pretty natural. Doing what is best for your child, what will help him to grow up happy and secure, is just what moms and dads do. So, that is what we are doing!