Monday, November 5, 2012

Halloween...and more...

We had a wonderful Halloween.  The holidays are becoming so joyful with these two precious beings around.  It is incredible to experience all of these special occasions through their eyes.  I know it is cliche to say, but what an honor it is to be a parent.  I get to watch these little miracles grow into full grown people!  I have to be honest, I sometimes worry about the coming years - I can't imagine enjoying them any more than I do now.  To be honest, most school age kids kind of annoy me, lol!  I assume mine won't be as annoying...but will it be as fun?  I don't know, they are just so amazing right now!  

At the pumpkin patch, refusing to pose as usual:).

This one is always up for a "cheese!" moment:).

Her skull skirt - she wore it last year for Halloween and it still fits this year!

My little monster.

Handsome Diego (try to ignore the Halloween explosion that is my living room in this picture:)).

Yup, even mommy dressed up.  Sadly, this is as close as we could get to a posed picture of the three of us.   *sigh*

Seriously, how cute is he?

She is soooo serious!

Love the light in this one...

And this one.

Rory got in on the fun.  Addy is in the background whining - a common occurrence these days.

I should end this by saying it is NOT always easy and beautiful and lovey-dovey in my house, lol!  I always struggle with people who only write about how wonderful life is as a mom...because I don't know if that's real.  The days are HARD with these two.  I have found myself doing things I said I'd never do (you might notice Jackson was a TV character for Halloween and I always swore my kids would not watch TV until age 3...but then he turned two and he loved it so....).   I am working hard to take deep breaths and when I get overwhelmed, to slow down and soak them in.  I even left work a couple of hours early today, just because I could and because I am sick of working so much and being away from them more than I want to be.   I have been overtaken lately with anticipatory grief.  Pretty soon, they won't be toddlers anymore.  My chest aches and my eyes well with tears just thinking about it.  I'm not going to waste away these hours, days and weeks being sad that they are flying by.  Instead, I am being very deliberate about spending time enjoying Jax and Addy.  When Jackson says, "mommy, sit!" and pats the couch next to him, you better believe I sit.  When Addy hands me a book and says "read," I read to her.  I rock longer before bed with each of them, I sit and play on the floor with them, I do art projects with them and I let them help me clean the windows.  I don't want to waste one second.  So...yes, it is hard, some days are downright painful.  I've decided that that's just motherhood.  But, that said, I've also employed some strategies when I notice myself feeling over-the-edge anxious, and I do believe they are working - self care (I finally started my weekly yoga class again!), slowing down the pace of our days, and making the time to just BE with them have all helped.   Any other mommy tricks out there?


  1. Sounds like you're a great mom! Some days are absolute disasters around here. One thing I just started doing is telling paisley something I loved about her that day, such as something she said or did. I figure it will be good for her confidence and it makes me really think about finding positives every day.

  2. Amber I do that at nighttime too!! The grin on my son's face when I tell him something he did that made me proud that very priceless. I also agree with Amber that it sounds like you're a terrific momma! Enjoy as much of it as you can, because you are is so fleeting.

  3. Cute, cute costumes and so fun that you dressed up too!

  4. YOu are a great mom! I don't have any tips because I'm trying to currently figure that out too. After being at work for 9 hours then coming home, feeding kids, feeding dogs, baths and chasing two toddlers around I'm exhausted and really find myself sometimes plopping them in front of the tv just so I can relax. Not a cool mom move but sometimes I just can't help it. I'm with you though. I'm starting to get very sad that these younger years are almost over and I want to make the most of them. I'd love to hear more suggestions.

  5. Wow, they are seriously adorable!!!!

    I have hard times too as a mom, but my situation is so different. It is easy to not get frustrated or overwhelmed when there is only 1 child, and I only see her for a few hours a day. When I am at work, I get more me time in a day than a SAHM gets in a week.

    Also, most of the time I am with my little lady it is my husband and I both, so that always makes it easier.

    I am holding my breathe for the terrible twos though. Avery is one independent little thing and I think we have a storm brewing!!!!

    You are a great mom!

  6. Wine? hahaha Kidding. Sort of :) Cute pictures! Love Addy's skull tutu and Jackson smile/teeth are just out of this world ;) mmmm yeah...Sam has been watching Sesame Street videos since like 4 months old. Mother of the year. But you know what? She LOVES it and she needs a little bit of that downtime and so does mommy. Haha Most school age kids annoy me as well!!!! So funny you said that.