We've now been on the waiting list two months. I have no growing belly to show for it, no strangers stopping me to ask me how far along I am, no real indication that this wait is getting any shorter. I know two months is behind me, but that doesn't help when I have absolutely no idea how much is still ahead of me!
To be fair, this second month was easier than the first. Time went by a little quicker, each day didn't seem like it went on for weeks. I'm much too busy for that. I just keep thinking...what if we get to the fall with no baby? (Which, by the way, is perfectly possible and would still be within normal time frames.) My stomach drops.
I cannot keep living life as is, as if I don't want it to be so much more. Same job, same hamster wheel full of piles of work, same empty home, day after day after day. How many more months can I take this?
I guess we'll find out.
On a side note, I wanted to post about the candle holders people seemed to like. It is actually all one candle and looks like this when all together:
Two of the sides say "In Loving Memory"
One of the sides says, "What a beautiful difference one single life has made."
The last side says, "After the rain comes a Rainbow, after the darkness comes Light...after the clouds disappear is only the beautiful and the bright. What a Beautiful difference one single life has made."
I checked the bottom. It is copyrighted by Giftcraft 2008. The brand on it says Simply You. I do adore this candle and hope those of you interested can find it. Since I have two angels, I particularly love that this candle has two separate candle holders. I hope you can find it if you want it!
Thank you everyone for your beautiful comments on Mother's Day. My dear sister actually lit two candles and remembered my angels on that special day with me. My heart swells with love for her, for my angels, and for all of you.
Here's to another month behind us and who knows how many ahead of us!