Mother's Day is Here

Ready or not. I knew I wanted to post on this powerful day, but I wasn't sure what to write. There are many feelings in my heart, too many to write. This is my third Mother's Day since our first miscarriage. Three years of this day, all filled with pain. I hope and pray next year will be the one that is different. I pray this every year, so it's hard to believe the prayer will be heard, and answered.

I'd like to say to some special mommies and mommies-in-waiting out there:

Happy Mother's Day to those of you celebrating your first, precious Mother's Day after years of waiting, wishing, hoping and praying.

Happy (or tolerable) Mother's Day to those of you whose angels passed too quickly through your lives. They were here, and then they weren't. But, they were here. You are their mommy, and you need to remember that today. This day is for you, too.

Happy (again, or tolerable) Mother's Day to those of you who are still hoping, wishing, waiting and praying for happier Mother's Days to come. Keep your heart protected and full of love, remembering that your child will find his/her way to you. Happier Mother's Days are in your future.

For me, I know I am blessed. I have gotten multiple cards, a sweet package from my sister with a beautiful mom-to-be card, and I have a gift waiting to be opened when my thoughtful hubby comes home from work. I have cried multiple times today...not only because this day is painful, but because I have the most wonderful friends and family who allow me to both grieve and celebrate on this day. That is a delicate dance, and their support is invaluable.

Lastly, I'd like to say:

Happy Mother's Day to my Mom. Without you, Mother's Day would not be so special to me. Because, without you, I would not know the intense love between a mother and her child. Without you, I wouldn't have this aching passion and desire to be a mom, because I wouldn't know how important and special the role of "mom" can be. I am blessed to have you, and I will never forget that. Although we are apart, please know you are always and forever in my heart.

To our future baby's first mom - you are in our hearts today. We don't know you yet, but we already love you. My wish for you today (and every day) is that you are safe, supported and well loved.

And to my angels, your mommy is remembering you today...and your candles are lit....