I do believe, however, that I have officially entered into the world of expectant mothers, as I have had two pretty obvious "symptoms":
1. I had a very bizarre dream that pretty much included all my biggest fears about becoming a mom, as listed here: the baby will come abruptly and unexpectedly (the baby was dropped off the day after we got on the list in my dream), I won't know anything about the baby (the social worker couldn't even tell me his birthdate), I won't think the baby is cute, I won't feel connected to the baby, or feel like his mommy (it was a boy in the dream), and we will have feeding issues (in the dream, my baby kept choking and then projectile vomiting all the formula I gave him). All the little things in the back of my head surfaced in this dream. I guess it's time to deal with the anxiety that comes with expecting a baby.
2. I am literally crying about EVERYthing. If I see stories of families, of love, of children on TV, I become an emotional mess. My youngest niece greeted me at the door with my name for the first time last night and I about lost it as I kissed and hugged her. I feel so raw as I think about the day our lives will change - filled with feelings of anticipation, excitement and fear and dread over the wait. I can't even tell you what I feel at any given moment, it's that complicated. So, I cry at everything.
So, there you go. I'm expecting (kind of). It is incredibly exciting AND surprisingly terrifying all at once. I don't even have words for how that feels. I can just tell you, it is powerful.